Forgive me, dear reader, it has been too long since my I last published anything here. I seem to have fallen out of the habit of writing and more importantly publishing here regularly.
At the start of the year, I was hopefully about finding my voice here again, about being more reflective , sparked by what LLM models spit out about me. It’s April now, and I just haven’t managed to do it. I have a quite a few unfinished posts in draft form. All with some potential, some relevance to something relevant at that particular moment, but the moments have all gone.
Writing is hard. It should be hard, it should be a struggle, it should feel you with that mixture of pleasure and pride when you hit that publish button or see something in a print edition. Sure we all need help to learn the craft of writing, but we do need to remember it is a craft not something that can turned into an activity that just needs to be passable.
I don’t need help with the actually writing. Well that is probably debatable, but this is my blog and the thing I’ve always appreciated about blogging is that I’m in charge, it’s not a peer reviewed journal, it’s my voice, typos and all, and I have always found that liberating. I don’t want or need any GenAI tool to help (yes looking at you Co-pilot, I am not going to “turn you on” )suggest, misappropriate what I am trying to say.
There is no easy answer to what I am experiencing. It’s a mix of malaise, not quite sure what I want to say, and in all honesty not sure who I am saying anything too. Maybe I just have rose tinted glasses about the “good old days”, when blogging was still new, when Twitter was actually a supportive network, when you felt you could reach “your people” . . . The takeover of social networks by advertising, by algorithms has fragmented “my people”. We have dispersed to other spaces . . . there are still strong and valued connections, but it’s not the same . . . or have just given up and got the “cba” (cant be a*sed) syndrome? What system should I be on?
Finding out that some of my publications have been scraped for use in LLM training data sets without publishers seeking consent was not unexpected but to see it in black and white so to speak. Well that was, how can I put it? I felt violated. As one of my friends said when he checked the site, “it’s a bit like seeing your Stasi file.”
But there is, I feel, something more insidious happening just now: the wider political narratives around AI adoption; the myths of increased productivity, the debasing of human interactions into simplified automated lowest common denominator processes; the AI revolution will save the economy (it might kill the planet in the process, but hey that’s ok because one day will have the ultimate algorithm that will solve everything . . . will that be 42?
In terms of education, I keep hearing /reading about systems that will “save time, increase personalisation, allow teachers to “do the things that matter” (because obvs they’re not doing that just now!). So plug in, create your curriculum, your lesson plans, your activities, assessments. Let’s live all work towards the myth of personalisation which in reality will actually be mass homogenisation. But, hey your AI assistant will know your name, and have made lots of assumptions about you based on all that demographic and consumer, health and social media data it has on you, your family, friends and neighbours. Let’s all just help build the pedagogies of oppression that “the system” will use against us.
I feel that the systems are silencing me just now. I’m worried about what to say, where to say it. What systems aren’t totally f*cked up by right wing politics, neoliberal tech bro ownership . . . Is that what “they” want – new cultures of silence, where we are all displaced and can’t collectively and effectively resist their narratives?
A couple of things have really hit home over the past week to give me hope and make me find a little bit of my voice again. The first was reading There are Rivers in the Sky by Elif Shafak. It’s a wonderful book, and at its heart, is the struggle around history, who controls it, who classifies it, who owns it, who is displaced/forgotten (mainly women), how we (human kind) so easily destroy the environments we rely on to survive. So many resonances with the debates around AI and knowledge/information. Not so much the white saviour but the tech bro saviour syndrome – but of course most of the “big” tech bros are white. The current LLMs don’t “know” everything, not everything is datafiable (not sure if that is a word), what about stories, oral traditions, not in the database so they don’t count, or are at best a digital footnote.
Also this Ted talk from Carol Cadwaller, This is what a digital coup looks like – watch, listen and like me start to think more about how we can fight back.







